Earlier this year, fellow YouTube star and Amazing Race cast member Joey Graceffa came out as gay, and now the winner of Starz’s The Chair and YouTube star Shane Dawson has come out as bisexual via a video.
“I always wished that I was gay, just 100 percent gay,” Shane says, “but I’m not, I’m not completely gay. … But I also can’t sit here and say that I’m straight.”
In the often-emotional video, Shane references Caitlyn Jenner. “I don’t want to go my whole life closing it down, and then when I’m like 65, like Bruce Jenner, I ended up realizing–I don’t want to do that,” he says. “I don’t want to hate myself anymore. I don’t want to be sad all the time.”
Shane has previously referenced conversation about his sexuality. Once he was on YouTube, he says in this new video, “I became the guy who everybody called gay,” which led him to become defensive. “I kept repressing the feelings.” In his collection of essays, he jokes,
“When I tell people my first relationship was when I was twenty-one they assume I grew up Amish. They also assume I’m an insanely repressed, closeted homosexual. Considering I’m only twenty-six, there’s still plenty of time for me to explore my gay side. … I swear I’m not Amish. The gay thing is questionable.”
Shane acknowledges jokes he’s made before, saying, “I’ve made fun of them [bisexual people] in the past–obviously projecting.” Two years ago, Joey and Shane produced a video together titled Are you gay? challenge, and jokingly answered questions from Twitter to try to determine whether or not they’re gay.
In the video, he says he came out to friends and family this week, and has been in therapy. “Over the last year, I have been extremely sexually confused–I mean, my whole life, but this last year is when it really hit me,” he says.