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Big Brother’s Aaryn: depressed, not racist, confronting bigotry, wants to travel, looking for a job in TV

It’s been just over a month since Aaryn Gries left the Big Brother bubble and discovered how the world felt about her words and actions and Aaryn says she is a changed person.

In an interview with the San Antonio Express-News, Aaryn said she wants “to travel around the world, experience different cultures,” but that’s not a ploy to be on The Amazing Race. Instead, she actually wants to “become more well-rounded. … I’ve clearly been living in a bubble, and I need to change that,” she said. That includes stopping others from saying offensive things: “I’m doing everything I can to change my actions and those of people around me. When I hear anyone talking like that, I correct them immediately,” she said.

That sounds great, but may also sound coached, and perhaps for good reason: She has Los Angeles-based publicists who “are putting together a hosting reel for possible TV jobs,” the paper reported, adding that Aaryn “also mentioned two interviews lined up for November: for a role in a miniseries and a small part in a feature film.”

But she doesn’t care that she was fired from her modeling job because of the things she said on the Big Brother live feeds: “I’m just a college student. Modeling was just something I did on the side.”

Other things she said: “I’ve been in and out of depression since the whole thing happened. … I’m not a racist in any way, but I know I said things that were insensitive and mean.” When people have recognized her, she said, “No one said anything negative.”

Finally, after Julie Chen interviewed her–a well-deserved confrontation that still managed to be quintessential CBS because Julie Chen and the producers/network let all the other cast members off the hook for the terrible things they said–Aaryn said, “It was really hard for me because I don’t have any hate in my heart for any specific race or sexuality. It’s really difficult to defend yourself — especially when you said things that were horrible.”


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