Fantasia admits trying to kill herself

American Idol 3 winner Fantasia Barrino will release a new album tomorrow and appear on VH1’s Behind the Music Tuesday, two weeks after trying to kill herself.

In the VH1 special, she admits that’s what she was trying to commit suicide: “I didn’t have any fight in me. I didn’t care about anything. I just wanted out,” she says, according to People. “I just sat in the closet and looked at the mirror and took all the pills in the bottle. I wanted to go to sleep and just be at peace. I knew exactly what I was doing. You can’t accidentally take a whole bottle of pills.”

She also says, “I was tired of people doing me wrong, constantly, over and over again, dealing with my family — my father, dealing with men and their shit — I was tired,” she says. “My head was hurting me. I was over it.”

Survivor San Juan Del Sur's dark cloud is lifted

John Rocker

In its third episode, Survivor San Juan Del Sur improved significantly as John Rocker faced off against an Amazing Race villain. But the Exile Island reward challenge remains a drag on the series.


Why Dick Donato left Big Brother 13

Dick Donato

The Big Brother villain known as "Evel Dick" has finally revealed why he left the show during its 13th season: he learned he was HIV positive.

Also: Dick claims he had no choice but to leave the game.

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